A Witness

I don’t really see myself as a writer. I have long seen myself as a witness to life. I’ve never had what it takes to become a famous writer. I simply refuse to pander to the audience by sticking to a particular genre or utilizing trends to make a connection with the reader. Instead, I witness life and use a figurative mirror to show the audience what I’ve seen.

I know now that most people do not appreciate this style of writing. People want what other people want. It’s a proven fact! and it’s called Mimetic Desire. And in the age of social media, this trend is heightened to decadent levels. If you get a chance, read about Rene Girard and his research.

Years ago, when I first began having my books published, I got the attention of a few fans. One of them had t-shirts made with a quote from one of my books that read, “I’ll send you my reports, as long as you promise to read them with your senses.” (on the front is an old wood-cut image of Francois Villon, the vagabond poet who I adore and allude to in Love and Maladies).

I was so honored that someone noticed and actually enjoyed my writing. I thought it was the beginning of a meteoric rise. But alas, many years later, I have toiled and toiled and have become depressed that no one really cared for my writing. So much so that I had to go back to my roots. Back to writing for myself. Watching the world, and instead of using a pen, I pulled out the mirror again to show the audience what I witnessed.

I felt free again. Free from the selfish expectation that I deserved to be noticed, recognized, featured or showered with compliments. It was for me again, and if someone happened to enjoy it, then that was a bonus.

I then wrote a book that was over 600 pages, then another book about baseball. No one reads books about baseball any longer, but it was well-written and I was satisfied.

Then a friend told me I should take a break from writing books and instead, do a podcast. Being a novelist, I was a little hesitant. But I loved the idea of including my music with my writing to enhance the emotional aspects of the story.

DEMOCRACY JONES PodioBook has been a joy so far. I took what I saw as decadence and decline in modern American culture and found a perfect anthropological and sociological comparison in the Late Republic period of ancient Rome. I then pulled out the mirror again to show everyone what I found.

Of course, you can imagine what happened next. It wasn’t very popular. Thousands of people listened to the first few episodes, and I have a small following of about 200 subscribers, but. . . In a world that demands you to choose between Liberalism and Conservatism, a Podcast about how absurd it is that we have to make a choice between the two, hasn’t really hit home.

What are you gonna do? Quit writing? Nah, I can’t quit writing. Just like I can’t pander for attention. I’ll keep holding up a mirror to what I witness, and if people can find enjoyment in what I’ve seen, I’ll be glad.

And if not, I’ll die one day satisfied that I wrote the way I feel people should write, from personal experience.

Published by Eamon

Eamon Loingsigh is a shortlisted author of historical novels, YA, poetry, speculative fiction and the Science Fiction-Horror podcast DEMOCRACY JONES: 7/13. He earned a degree in Journalism and has written for the Associated Press, The Guardian, Tampa Bay Times and many other publications.

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